lost
I am lost… Lost on what i need to do… Looking on your sad face,saying with hopeful that he will remember the date of your birthday… The atmosphere and the feeling I have really so strange and weird. Angry? Sad? Disappointed? Whatever, that’s not important at all… But why? everytime I want to help but never get a chance… But even get the chance will I willing to do so? That’s so ironic… From the begining already realise that once he take an action, even a simple greeting, you will more admire on him… But when starring at your face full-fill with sadness and hope, I really lost on myself for helping you or not… everytime lie on myself ask you try to find him or give me his contact number, sometime really so regret saying about these…But I don’t want u feel yourself bad….Am I stupid? Hehe…yeah, I realise I am… Helping the one I love most spread her feeling on the one I dislike… That’s so ironic thing… After lost the things humans only can realise how important it is… Everything really not same as what human expect, the one admire don’t like own but only the one don’t like always stay besides… Is the fact of world? Or just only I am too sensitive thinking on this stuff… Maybe I am the one who really need to disappear, or I am just only a nonsense living being…
