birthday…….
birthday, should be spent the happiness with the one who close n friends, but y…is that only this date can be happy only? after happy, only can be sad? i really don understand… birthday, really become no meaning for me… the happiness just only a flash of light, after that fall into the darkness… i really so sad… y??? everything actually is fine, but y? is this the one u really wan? is that i only bring u suffer? i really so sad…heard ur crying sounds, saying don wan to involve in love…is that i only a nonsense being? i just only a rubbish? wat i can do? protecting u is that wrong? i really feel pain to looking u suffer, y don u take me as ur listner? just awhile i already feel enough… ya i admit, i really so wish u can accept me, n i often dream that our future life, when u r saying about that boy i really feel jealous. a girl as good liked u but he never care u, when u r talking about him, i really not dare to look on ur face…i really scare, i scare i’ll lost u, scare i cant accept the one i love the most will gone, the one i love not love me but others…i really scare to suffer this again. Y? wat’s wrong i did? sometime i really so tired to be alive, when i know ur heart actually not with me…but y? i was blur on wat i m thinking… love u just only make u suffer, but can’t put down the love…. i really so confuse…y……
